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Read This! Isobel Bess’ Powerful Anyway I Saw a Light There

Read This! Isobel Bess’ Powerful Anyway I Saw a Light There

Author: Edit Team

November 10, 2020

The following is excerpted from anyway i saw a light there, the new collection by Lambda Literary Fellow Isobel Bess. Crafted with a rigorous and experimental dexterity, anyway i saw a light there is a longform essay / sonnet redoublé about living in the aftermath of a traumatic brain injury.

Isobel Bess is an interdisciplinary artist, writer, and musician living and working in occupied Lenapehoking. She is also the author of Taphonomy (Best Buds! Collective), Braided Channel (with Amy Marvin), and a bunch of zines. She was a 2017 Lambda Literary Fellow in poetry and a recipient of the Bryn Kelly Scholarship.

sonnet 1 / places the spacelessness never about silence in speech

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sonnet 3 / an on time never boundary nothing fail voice i remember

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